Bah Humbug.

I'm just acting like the holidays aren't happening this year.

I couldn't find the energy to get a tree. I can't remember the last time I made it to December without putting a tree up.

I haven't bought a roll of wrapping paper or even walked through the Christmas section at Target. I'm opting out of many gift exchanges.

I usually host our English department's Christmas party, but the idea of hosting anything just makes me feel drained. I'll just lay low.

The Christmas/Hanukkah parties aren't on the calendar. Is it worth finding a babysitter? Or risking feeling uncomfortable? I haven't figured it out.

I have no idea when I was last at the mall. It's been a long time. I used to enjoy the hustle and bustle of the holidays, but I'm pretty sure a crowded mall would give me a panic attack today.

I haven't invited my friends from college up for our annual visit. I desperately want to see them, but it feels like so much effort for them to get up here, and I don't have the money to put on our Christmas tea.

I'm letting the holidays roll on by.

I figure this is the last year where I'll have this sort of an option. Next year Klara will be more involved in our holiday celebrations. I hope that will make this time of the year more merry and bright.

I'm just ready for it all to be over this year.