Last year, about this time, I had a painful date. The guy was a dud and we both ended the date understanding that we would never see each other again. Today was different. Yes, you caught me, I only date but once a year.
My date today greeted me with flowers. He is kind, easy to talk to, and he laughs easily. We smiled much and were comfortable together. At the end of the “date,” we went for a walk and he was quite complimentary. He expressed a desire to “continue or conversation.” He is a nice guy, no doubt.
When he left, Kimberly smiled at me and said, “So?” The tears came quickly as I couldn’t articulate why I am not interested in him. It was fun. He’s nice. I am not attracted to him.
You’re right: I didn’t give him much of a chance to prove himself. On the other hand, if I have to convince myself to give someone a chance, I’m not sure that they’re what I’m looking for. Maybe I’m not looking for anyone. Maybe I like to be single. I just don’t know.
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Like a wet firecracker
at 11:52 PM
Talking about relationships (of the confusing sort)
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You just wrote verbatim how I feel everytime a boy is actually interested in me.
He could be a good guy, great even.
My friends all like him...and push the "us" factor.
He could even be attractive.
But there's just something in my brain that says "nope, not him".
Sigh...I guess I'll just know when I know?
We can try again next year ;)
Well, I've been waiting for the update that could build on "I wish it had gone better". Hang in there, as Kimberly said, there's always next year. Ps - Maybe Chris will be single again!! :-D
PS - I must admit that I am a firm believer in not talking yourself into something. If you have to convince yourself, it's not right. I learned that the hard way.
me too!
me three.
I might as well be the fourth to agree. And besides now you know. Thanks for the update :)
Hey Sherry, I know that I only casually keep track of your blog, so I am sorry to post a comment on this so late. However, I think that you're right to be guarded in who you entrust yourself to. I hope the tears are not for loneliness' sake, or fear, or whatever comes along in the mind of a woman to bring tears in the face of confirmation.
You deserve to be rescued by someone who is worth your time. There is a dragon inside of you, near you, about you, that needs slaying and only one man will be able to storm the castle and capture your heart. Then, and only then, will you both encounter an adventure together. It is then that you find how Christ sacrificed Himself to guard us from the evil within.
I hope this is encouraging to you. Keep doing what you're doing. I am sure God will bring someone about that captivates you and stirs up that longing of peace and purpose that was missing on your date. Until then, be confident in the woman God has made you.
i hope he doesn't read your blog :)
Thank you for the encouragement, friends.
Kim: No, he doesn't read it. To be fair, I was kind to him, right? He really seems to be a quality person! I hope this doesn't come across as bashing in any way. If anything, it's a testimony to my freakishness.
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