It's complicated.

I've overcome the shock and the feelings of betrayal, and now I just miss her.

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Our last conversation was in the bathroom where she encouraged me to start running--telling me that even I could become a runner. She offered to train with me. She promised me that I could do it. I'm not going to take up running, but I left our conversation believing I could.

That's how she is (was?). She was so positive and willing to help. She believed in people.

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At our staff meeting that dreary afternoon, one of the teachers said, "She was arrested? Like, in jail arrested?" When the teacher's question was answered in the affirmative, the gasps and sniffles were audible. It was an image we couldn't bear.

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The afternoon I found out the news, I went home to my place where my mom was taking care of Klara. I walked in and told my mom what I'd just learned. Her response was, "What an idiot!" I looked through teary eyes at my mom and said, "It's not that simple. She's my friend."

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That's the problem. It's not simple. Today, I just miss her.