Un-preparing

With shaking hands and blurry eyes, I put away most of the stuff in the "baby's room."  The baby sling and the receiving blankets my mom made for me hurt the most. They were to become a part of my day, as I learned to fulfill my new role as "mom." Then, I put the diapers in the box and that made me sad, too. 

I tried to take the children's books off the shelf and move them to the "nephew closet" downstairs, but I just couldn't. If you come and stay in the guest room, you can read yourself to sleep with a story. I'm not moving them.